Spring fever

I am sick of comparing myself to the past so I am going to cut that project short and just say

I LOVE BEING well free of certain bad habits :]

Priorities

march 10th a year ago

I can do that later, oh that it'll get done! or I just dont wanna do it

oh I will just get my GED

march 10th 2010

I am on track to graduate... I am only a lil behind in school and its in science but I am working on it.

I've got a feeling

march 4th a year ago

I do whatever I want and I dont see why anyone cares its not affecting them.... I am invincible....

March 4-7

I cant do whatever I want because there are consequences that aren't worth it... I had an amazing weekend! friday I didnt go see alice as I thought planned but we did have a lot of fun... I went back to work with a new attitude OH and new hair.... (pics later) Its sunday and I am about to go to breakfast with my baby..... well its one so I guess lunch now haha!

People

So at every point in your life there are people who help you along your path weather it be a positive one or negative so here I am going to explain each of the people in my life a year ago and the people now.

People a year ago

Jenn Ghan

My In denial best friend

(I lied to her about everything)

The guy

My bf.... I thought he was dark and edgy and smart and cool

(he was really a dead beat who a year later is still doing the same thing and its pathetic.)

Mother

Evil woman who wants to suppress my individuality... She was so dumb

(Not really but I will write more about her later)

Sam

Kept all my dirty little secrets

(probably wasnt a good thing but it formed our friendship)

People now

Brenna Leonard

The best friend

(she knows everything about me and accepts me)

The guy

Cedric... amazing guy who has taught me alot already... he makes me strive to be better because he deserves a good girlfriend and well I dont want to loose my place.

(he thinks I am crazy)

Mother

The caring mom who loves me... I still hurt her sometimes but I try to make it up. she has done the most for me and I will never be able to fully make it up to her but I love her.

(she is amazing)

Sam

our relationship has changed I no longer tell her dirty little secrets because there really isnt any. but sam knows my past and she see's how I am now and she encourages me to do good.

giving up that awful habit has led me to meeting the coolest people I have ever met....

Project reality

March 2 ( a year ago)

Ugh I feel sick.... I am never doing that again.... why does anybody like this.....*Phone rings*

Yeah dude it was INSANE! yeah I will totally do it tomorrow bring me a few of em but we have to do it at school I am grounded....

March 2nd 2010

I have been going on a lot of hikes lately I am feeling healthier.... and this weekend I have fun plans involving local shows and maybe alice in wonderland...... my bf wont tell me its a surprise weekend :]

getting real

*this blog is coming from deep inside handle with care*

So a year ago I had just started an awful habit that I said I was going to live in for a year to "feel" it and to be tragically beautiful.. but something interfered and I was forced to give up that habit..... and I know now that it was for the better and that I would have gone no where with that habit but I still feel it is important to address those feelings but a different outlook so for myself and for anyone else out there who wants to go a long for the ride I am going to make March a Celebration of sobriety I am going to write a blog entry everyday with a comparison of a blog entry I would have written a year ago and how I feel now. starting with today..

March 1st (a year ago)

I just need an escape for a while... just to slip away and find out who I really want to be... I wanna have fun and let loose... Be free!

March 1st 2010

I am fine in reality.... I slip up sometimes and I hurt the ones I love but I have control and I control my freedom